People always say leave the past in the past, but moving on is a lot easier said than done. How do you get over a past that never even gave you a chance for the future?
My sisters, brother, and I spent about 14 years in foster care. We were not fortunate enough to be placed together, and ultimately neither our parents nor any other family member cared enough to get us.
I must have lived in 16-21 different homes and group homes before I aged out to be on my own.
I didn't have a chance to keep in touch with my siblings or anything...and on top of that 20 out of the 21 homes I was being abused either mentally, physically, or sexual.
It wasn't any easier for my sisters and brother.
Just imagine being 4 yrs old and being ripped away from the only ppl you knw and you don't even know why. It was hard thinking it was all my fault
After a while you start to believe all the negative things that's being said around you.
I said all of that to say this....
People need to realize that their actions do not only affect them.
This is the life we were given because of my parents actions. We didn't ask for it but it wasn't a damn thing we could do about it. So who raised us? Life...Life raised us. There are things I still don't knw and here I am trying to raise two kids of my own
IF YOUR NOT COMPLETELY READY TO GIVE UP YOURSELF, TIME, ENERGY, AND ANYTHING NEGATIVE THAT'S IN YOUR LIFE THEN DON'T HAVE KIDS. DON'T MAKE YOUR KIDS SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES FOR YOUR ACTIONS. AND IT NEVER ENDS NO MATTER HOW OLD YOU GET. DON'T PUT THAT BURDEN ON ONE CHILD TO HAVE TO TRY TO MAKE END MEETS FOR ALL OF THE SIBLINGS BECAUSE WE HAVE NO ONE ELSE TO TURN TO ALL WE CAN DO IS DEPEND ON EACH OTHER. SIBLINGS SHOULDNT HAVE TO BE MOTHERS AND FATHERS TO EACH OTHER, IT'S NOT OUR JOB.
GOD KNOWS I WOULDN'T WISH MY LIFE ON MY WORST ENEMY
I'M 23 AND STILL FEELING THE AFTER AFFECTS
I completely understand where you're coming from..u r a strong beautiful woman who will have success no matter what life has brought or will bring your way. Keep the faith and u will succeed =)
ReplyDeleteI cant say that I understand completely bc I have never been through this but I do believe that once you begin to let things go and I mean REALLY let go it helps the healing process.I agree 100%, people need to really grow up and be ready to be parents! Children are not pets or accessories. I pray God heals your wounds, seen and unseen and puts peace of all this in your heart. I do believe you will feel better in time. I think you should continue to tell your story and you continue to have your hand in the system to help with chances! Love ya girl!!
ReplyDeletefriend u are are strong woman and you are doing a AWESOME job with your kids- from your previous experiences you will know exactly what to teach them and you will know the right advice to give. Continue praying and everything will be okay. You are a very good woman, and Phil i know is Proud!! Love you, Ke~
ReplyDeleteSorry yall for some reason it would not let me comment. I just wanted to say thank you for taking the time to read my blog and all your encouraging words. I'm determined to keep pushing no matter what. Love you all
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